The lonely part of me...

The lonely part of me...

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Posted by sehgal_ankur on February 02, 2003 (Sunday)

The Slice of life takes the humour away and gets in the memories which we dreamed together someday; she left me alone on earth due to some unavoidable accident. Missing one of the dreams in her eyes, I try to type them again tonite... I pray for her soul and her happiness every night. Kindly try to add one of your prayers for my LOST LOVE/WORLD !

The lonely part of me still remembers the cheerful smiles, the time spent, the long-lasting hugs and lively face, the face I would have died for. But then just after hitting her I realized that I shouldn't do that, blood was flowing out in trails. No she didn't rebel, no she was not weeping, she just came near me and hug me so tight I could feel the pain in her heart. Before I could apologize she was on ground, she fainted & turned white.

I left her thinking she was sad, but then a part of me realized something was seriously wrong. I picked her in my arms & got some juice and helped her with respiration. She was breathing again and hug me like a kangaroo clinchin to its mother. It was as she will never leave me. I used to loose my nerves ? Why ? Then I cared for her she knew that more than I. Then I took her to a long drive. It was late evening. On our way to home she insisted on staying out. We got hotel nearby and some new dresses. It was the time when dates were changing in town when she came up with the reason for meeting that doctor third time a week. By then I was already expecting some bad news. The silent night and dimly lighted room on highway from where the view of whole city was foggy on Dec 17; was adding to my fears. Least of all expected at that moment news was a good one. Yeah I was happy for her and us when she came up again with demand of increase in budget for rest of the life as we have created a life which had grown to two months inside her. Oh !! I never realized that we were drifting away in last on-and-a-half months and never had any time for each other. Were we so busy or indifferent ? No it cant be true but but the truth was that we were indifferent. But I was happy now, excited and worried for our first child and my love who will be in troubles for upcoming months. Next thing I had on my mind was to put off coming 7-8 months for obvious reasons. It was almost after two months we made love and were fresh after bath to talk about the baby who will be soon in our arms and on our bed pissing.

We decided to put next day off and lie there in hotel hugging each other. All phones were off and we slept around five in the morning and had late lunch at 4ish. She was happy and so was I.

The days off from your work can help you to save the most important relations of your life. so go with it. Materialistic things come and go, but never comes it only leaves you and then u realize as they say: " The importance of love is never realiZed before the hour of separation."I saved her that time but now the loneliness in me just prays for her and our kid just a prayer of an aching heart, no hope for it but then I guess I will succeed someday and get her in my arms again. Praying for her with her tears in my eyes.

the LONE EAGLE

Sehgal

p.s. Seek the prayers for the dyin