Thadgam

Thadgam

i scold him only to show him the light,i never want to show my power to any creature sprouted on earth unnecessarily

thadgam.

morning ! sound like ring tone ,where it come from ? oh god damn,its from our own cellphone,vow !,got a new cellphone at home! yep, the cell phone entered our home yesterday night.

hats off to reliance !!

kevin is playing with it ,early morning .. he never shows interest in going school "poor fellow" i thought . i pity him ,though i scold him sometime.

i scold him only to show him the light, i never want to show my power to any creature that sprouted on earth unnecessarily

"Rana arent you going office today" ,mother asked me.she was lying beside. these words really shocked me and cleared my sleep completely. I had taken enough off this month.I dont wanna to be in the answering end. I just hate people putting questions to me.

what if the hierarchry is flat?!!

I said "yes ma i have to go"

my doggy came running to me,even my sigh is a big sign for him .

he put his forelegs up on the cot and his hind legs still on the ground.he stood in such a position that his face would be close to mine.he will never dare to jump onto the bed when my mother is around.

he licked my face, showing his unconditional love.he is more expressive than me. "why i keep my face blank?",i put so many questions to myself.

Still i was not able to get up from bed,felt very tired.it was 1'o clock ,the previous day night when i went to bed.

I was happy about the new cellphone,i enjoyed examining its functionalities.

I was still lying on the bed with my eyes closed and opened between intervals intervals.so many things flashing before me. memories,imaginations ..it flashes before me whether i love it or not. my brain being very impartial ,able to remember everything. the past ,certain incidents which i hate to remember,and certain things like my days with my brother and father......, who cease to exist on earth, i love them.

death is a pain for the living.

I was naughty kid then.but still i was good and obedient.

some memories about my sweet heart,i have some lovely stuff to think and cherish .

my brain never fails to remind me about the villain who played between me and my sweet heart.he had clearly confused both of us.

its all our mistake,we never tried to talk with each other. we wanted and wished the other one to be happy from where they are.

the crook! the villain ! ,he shed tears on that farewell day! perhaps, he would have felt shame ,shame of losing the game!

but he has got a sweet family! this is the point which i dont understand at all ! Is God being impartial?!!

"Rana aunty" ,kevin ,my nephew called.

"its 8'o clock".

"oh God !why am i feeling tired like this?",i got down from the bed .

thought of making coffee..

my hands feel pain typing. I am still concious in typing. I will continue little later.