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My "Angel" Baby

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Ellen M. DuBois
·February 17, 2001·2 min read

Posted by Ellen M. DuBois on Saturday February 17, @06:15AM

For anyone who's experienced a miscarriage or the loss of a child, I write this. Not to cause more despair, but to give hope.

When I found out you were there- growing inside of me, I was surprised and a little scared- of how our life would be.

But, I loved you from the moment- I knew that you were there. Even though we hadn't planned you- I felt joy beyond compare.

And then one day I noticed- that I did not feel right. My sister to my rescue- to save me from this plight.

A cold and sterile table- I sat upon in fear. The doctor looked for you- and found that you weren't there.

God wanted you my little one- not on this earthly plane. Not a day has passed my dear one- that I haven't felt the pain.

He said you weren't "viable". I asked, "What does that mean?" He replied you were not living- and my heart began to scream.

For sixteen weeks I had you- warm within my womb. And although I'll never know you- My love's as constant as the moon.

My arms will never hold you, your eyes I will not see- I'll never feel you sleeping so softly upon me.

Sometimes there are no answers to the tragedies in life. I must believe that God- knew the moment wasn't right.

So much time has passed- since that empty, lonely time. But even as I write this, my eyes with tears do shine.

But please remember precious one- in Heaven up above- You'll always be my Angel Baby- You'll always have my Love.

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