What is wrong at being selfish???

Trying to sort out thoughts on whether it is fair to cheat others to gain what you want???? To put it another way, how relevant is human rules on morality????

I struck upon this wonderful idea about 7 years back. I found that if you act as a nice guy, who shared things, who gave friendly advices, posed as a "friend in need", there were enough people around to help you out as well. And to top it all, you can still cheat them and they wouldnt suspect "innocent" you of anything at all.

You get all the text books you want, all the information you need and can always plead blissful ignorance of facts and information you need to hide, if you are smart enough about it.

But something was going wrong. I could sense that, but couldnt put my finger onto it until I heard an unrelated comment of my friend about people assuming roles to suit the circumstances.

The problem was, i began to like my mask. I found to my surprise that, i got all the benefits i had intended to gain, even without pulling those fast ones i had planned to. And i felt much nicer too. And surprise, surprise, when it actually came to pulling off some thing, i discovered i detested the idea of doing something like that

Dont get any wrong ideas. I am not saying at all that I turned into this benevolent saint from the green eyed fox through an amazing metamorphosis. Rather, I would put it this way that I struck upon a much better way to acheive my aim

which brings us to the core question of what is one's aim?????

Is it to gain money, have happiness in life, satisfy ones ambitions????

For me, aim of life is to have a comfortable life with maximised ego satisfaction. And i discovered that you can still lead a comfortable life if you sweat out the straight road, and still get the ego satisfaction if your friends call you a "nice guy". And i am equally sure that if my super ego or id succeeds some day in pushing through that initial instinctual impulse of self satisfaction through direct victory over my proximate human beings, i would take out my bag of tricks again.

(To be continued)