The last day

Tomorrow she is going for her wedding Leaving behind something ...

I have shut my eyes -tight .. God when i open it may it all be a nightmare I have shut my eyes tight .. God may tomorrow never come This wave is pulling me along.. and i am totally unaware ..unprepared I havent lived long enough

I open my eyes ..sure enough it is a new day ...the harbinger of the

end of my life and the beginning of the unseen .Its perhaps the most

wonderful day in the lives of many ,flowers with a different hue ,the sun

shines brighter than ever .Yes - it is for me too ..its just that i have

to wake up to it ,step out and open up to this ecstasy .I rise up from my

bed ,walk to the open ,is the sun brighter ??The flowers are like they

were always ...a sudden gloom fills the space around me - Its my last day

-God am i dying ?

Should I take the plunge and fall No ... with me I will take them all In their eyes I see myself as dream Through life after life that they have seen

I have to live this day,because I have chosen it to be designed this

way .Its too late to turn now .Many have walked they are living-so will I .And why not.I see promises in what lies ahead

-of happiness ,of love ,of content..gosh am i lucky ???

It always happens When i look in your eye I am going the wrong way It makes me feel .. wonder why ? What is it that i see which pulls me back ?

Bravely i force a smile as you sit by my side .But what is it that

melts it to a teardrop ..such that i had to look away for a while.This is

the last day when i can feel this way for you .What is it i know ..maybe

so do u but it will be a dream buried deep inside in an abysmal depth

never to be rediscovered again.Will it ??I get this gut wrenching feeling

...why should I bury it away ..when i know it is very much there

..because that is how I am supposed to live come tomorrow ...

It was till yesterday That I was the loved one of them all My world ,My family .. Today is the last day i belong to them ...attachements and detatchements why do they happen so easily??

Why is it that the day is moving with an unusual frenetic pace ?"Stop "

I want to scream ..but it is almost like an automated rollercoaster

..with no one around to hear my last few words .I desperately look around

..but all i see is happiness in everyone's eye - for me .Flowers they

give me to bid me a adieu ..with wishes for a new life ...

You walk with me till the gate I finally turn to you It will change my life forever This one step that i take

You shake my hand ..wishing like everyone else did ..but did i catch

something in your eye which was different ..did that smile convey

something more? I am not sure ..maybe it is just a manifestation of my

heart ..born out of a logic which will be lost ..

I turn away Tomorrow when i come back ..it will all be same The sun,the flowers ,the world and you But for me .. My whole life would have changed ... I am still not sure where does it go Maybe its for the better I soon will know ...